Monthly Archives: September 2012
I wanted to give everyone a head’s up that Mom and Baby will be cancelled next Sunday, October 7th, so everyone can enjoy the holiday weekend with their families. This means that the 8 week session will be extended to November 4th. We’re on for tomorrow though, so feel free to join us!
I started a post last week to complete day 39, but it sat as a draft up until now, so I decided to scrap it and write a new post summing up my overall experience with this practice. I’ve been writing posts in my head all week, but haven’t sat down to actually write any of them and I feel like the ship has sailed with my opportunity to write about many of the feelings I’ve had over the past 40 days. Hopefully this will help me to write more about my next practice….though I’m not holding my breath 😉
About two-thirds of the way through the practice I felt a shift. A thought pattern I’ve had for as long as I can remember was suddenly gone. This way of thinking is something i have discussed with numerous therapist over the years with noo significant change, and had come to the conclusion that it is just part of who I am. This shift was so subtle it went almost unnoticed by me, in fact it was a couple of days before I really realised the significance of what had happened. I have noticed my former pattern creeping back in over the last week or so, but one of the daily messages during the sadhana pointed out that this is not something to fret about. Even the briefest moment of clarity is to be cherished. This meditation has helped me to understand that there is no part of me that is negative, in need of cleaning, or changing, but rather it is the attachments that have formed during this life that are being removed to reveal my true self: pure unadulterated love. As Lao Tse said: “The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white; neither need you do anything but be yourself.”
Over the past week I’ve been feeling at odds with things, raw, detached, weeping at the slightest provocation (though that’s nothing new!) I don’t believe I’m actually any more irritable than usual, but i am definitely more aware of my irritability, which makes me even more irritable! This is something that I’ve been working on for years. I know that my knee-jerk, stress reactions to absolutely everything only serve to make me more stressed and anxious, but man, is this a hard pattern to break. I know that the only thing I can control is my reaction to things that come up in daily life, but it’s so hard to remember that in the moment. However, being aware of a pattern is the first step to breaking it, and the best way is to take everything as it comes, moment by moment, and not get stressed about being stressed.
These patterns have been formed over a lifetime, even over many lifetimes, and they aren’t going to change overnight, or over 40 nights. I will continue to cherish each precious moment in life, even the annoying ones. I will continue to open my heart and my mind, and to strengthen my body and spirit. Thank you so much for joining me on this journey, I really look forward to sharing my next practice with you ❤
It has been way too long since I posted about this sadhana! In my defense we had some major mechanical problems over the past week or so. The laptop has been out of commission for a while (coffee on the keyboard :S), and last Saturday the desktop conked out too. Right in the middle of my meditation! I know it’s been more than one week since I posted, but I had intended to finally set to last Saturday, really I did ;). The week before the computer died we were fighting T’s first ear infection, which meant both sleep and free time were in short supply. Thankfully he’s now back to his usual crazy self, so while we still don’t get as much sleep as this mama would like, at least things are getting back to “normal”. The computer is working again, and the laptop is even kind of working, though it’s a bit of a Frankenstein at the moment, it’s nice to have it back. So, that’s the story about why I’ve been slacking on my posts, but the important thing is that I have, in fact still been keeping up with my practice. The title of this post is a little misleading, ass I haven’t actually completed my practice for today, but stay tuned for “Day 39 Part Deux” a little later on 😉
Fall yoga at Milkface is in full swing! We’ve had to cancel our Prenatal classes this session, but Mom and Baby is good to go with a great group of mamas 🙂 In order to have the most fun possible, we’ve decided to add a drop-in price for this class of $15 (cash only). Please arrive a few minutes early to fill out a new student form and get settled. Classes run Sunday mornings from 10:45-11:45 at Milkface 1167 Bank St.